Today I talked to my dear friend and Kindred Spirit Lizzie who just had her second set of twins after years and years of infertility. We met through our shared misery and became friends not only through the pain we both felt at what we were going through - but also because of all the other things that we shared. I realized, as I looked at her blog to see pictures of the new babies while we talked... that it was those happy things we shared that made us friends for the past years -good lord - nearly 10 years now that I think of it. I realized that though I haven't talked to her much the past year (she has been a LOT busy!) that it wasn't the long discussions about this treatment or that, but the shared love of simply joys like tea and old black and white movies, dear old novels and lacy curtains that I missed about neither of us having the online time we used to. I realized that I want to be the old me... the happy me... the me that still takes delight in the small things that fascinate me .. as my darling husband says, my "oooh something shiney" moments. When the light of a bright star or the colour of a leaf or the curve of a cloud sparks my imagination. Hence the name of my new blog... and the attempt to recapture the happiness in my life. I have a Livejournal... but it had become the place where I poured all the bitterness and pain in my life. Well I want this to be the opposite. We will see how it works out.
Cynthia
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